Guilt and judgment had set in by the time I picked up the phone to call my husband. I felt like I’d let myself down over the last two months by not being at the top of my game.
“I haven’t had the energy to write for my blog, I’ve been swamped at work, and I feel habitually tired,” I rambled. I took a deep breath ready to continue down the line of things bothering me.
Before I could completely bury myself, my husband stopped me to interject all the things I hadn’t considered. Among the list, he included our move to a new place; the busy holiday season; travel; and my renewed commitment to early morning workouts. He went on to remind me that each of these things was a transition – a shift from my normal routine.
As we talked about a game plan for getting back aligned, I felt my shoulders sink down from my ears and my disappointments subside.
For a few months, my priorities had shifted and that wasn’t necessarily a terrible thing. I got to get settled into my new digs, spend a ton of quality time with family, and enjoyed great experiences. It didn’t fit into my box of routine, but it was worth it.
This entire time I thought it was about balancing it all, but by the end of the call, I realized there was no such thing. In fact, attempting to balance brought on this habitual feeling of missing the mark. When I thought about it, I’d simply shifted my focus from one important set of things to another. I decided that instead of failing at balancing, I’d find peace in shifting.
We can only do a few things well at once. Instead of frustrating yourself with a million and one things, allow yourself to shift your focus back and forth as necessary.
Remind yourself that doing your best will look different from day to day. And even on days when you don’t bring your “A” game, You deserve grace for all that you do.
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